Saturday, August 13, 2005

im back! =)) @ 3:42 PM

Didn't blog recently, cos i was busy with ndp, common tests and my blog was down. now it is alright le. yay and i got a new blogskin. i particularly like the music.. cos its from harry potter de!! haha. it makes mi look veri childish..to be crazy abt harry potter at such old age. lolx. but well, magical stuff appeals to mi. fairytale is a written dream.... yup i agree with tt. ppl who dun hv dreams dun hv much.

common tests for chem bio and math is finally over! wow. i didnt noe papers can be that hard. esp chem, which is one of my better subjects. i do until wan to explode le, esp the MCQ qn. i nv do such a hard MCQ paper before lor. and its 30 qn in 1 hr. gonna die liao. if i can pass it, it will be a true miracle. lolx. but well, it's over and there's no point crying over spillt milk. i always believe in this : prepare for the worst and hope for the best. aha.

went to bugis with dar and hanxiang todae, cos dar wanna change the skirt we bought for her lor. then spend the rest of our time walking aimlessly in bugis street, looking at clothes, shoes and bags. i wan a new bag!! but there's nth there tt catches my eye. honestly i dunno wat do i exactly i want. but im sure, if i see it, i will know. lolx. dar wants a new pair of slippers.. haha. if we know earlier, shld hv bought her slippers for her bdae. since she hv so mani skirts liao. esp those... *ahem*... "shu nu" ones... lolx. went to temple and pray too.. lolx. since its like quite near to bugis street. saw a lot of ppl sitting there and asking for money. see liao oso veri ke lian leh. realli. i didnt noe singapore has so many of these people. some of them are realli old liao lor. havent they had enuff suffering during the second world war? why are they still slogging in their old age? i constantly wonder. i dun even noe wat to call them. the word "beggar" is jus a sort of taboo word for mi. nobody is born a beggar, and nobody likes to be one. didn't everyone always say tt humans are of high intelligence, and therefore we shld hv dignity? if ppl resort to begging, we can imagine the amt of helplessness and hopelessness they felt. but i think we ought to applaud them for having the will to live in such bad conditions. if it was mi, i wld probably hv killed myself. courage is not being fearless, but it's action despite of fear.

so i told myself: if i had the money, i will donate it to charity. there are ppl out there who needs the money tt is rotting in our banks. *sigh* seeing these ppl realli saddens mi. more than when i see ppl with terminal diseases.

suddenly, there is this thing tt strike mi. im seventeen. gosh. time does flies, doesnt it? three more yrs than i will be a whomping 20 and 4 more yrs, i will be officially an adult. i dunno why, but ya, i dun wan to grow up. the idea of growing up frightens mi. it seems just yesterday tt im 12 and jus received my PSLE results. and suddenly im here, preparing for A lvls. if im lucky, perhaps in 8 or 9 yrs time, i will probably get married. which is oso real scary. im jus a lil' girl at heart. and when mom was my age, she already had my sis. being an adult means no more license for making mistakes. no more excuses to make up for wrongdoings. perhaps other ppl is right. i hv nt been ard. all along, i had been living in a cosy world. now tt im used to it, i dowan to face the harsh reality. i realli hate it when ppl tell mi i've not experienced "tong ku". it's true tt i haven't but who wants to experience it voluntarily? isnt life supposed to b happy? dun realli understand. cos some ppl went to experience tt to prepare for future "tong ku", but if i do tt, wun it be like, im having tong ku all my life? kinda silly realli. life is jus full of ups and downs. why make ur ups become downs?

yay, i tink i recovered le. except tt i still have a teeny weeny bit of cough lar. i wan to SING!! yay. kbox rox. aha.

Saturday, August 13, 2005

im back! =)) @ 3:42 PM

Didn't blog recently, cos i was busy with ndp, common tests and my blog was down. now it is alright le. yay and i got a new blogskin. i particularly like the music.. cos its from harry potter de!! haha. it makes mi look veri childish..to be crazy abt harry potter at such old age. lolx. but well, magical stuff appeals to mi. fairytale is a written dream.... yup i agree with tt. ppl who dun hv dreams dun hv much.

common tests for chem bio and math is finally over! wow. i didnt noe papers can be that hard. esp chem, which is one of my better subjects. i do until wan to explode le, esp the MCQ qn. i nv do such a hard MCQ paper before lor. and its 30 qn in 1 hr. gonna die liao. if i can pass it, it will be a true miracle. lolx. but well, it's over and there's no point crying over spillt milk. i always believe in this : prepare for the worst and hope for the best. aha.

went to bugis with dar and hanxiang todae, cos dar wanna change the skirt we bought for her lor. then spend the rest of our time walking aimlessly in bugis street, looking at clothes, shoes and bags. i wan a new bag!! but there's nth there tt catches my eye. honestly i dunno wat do i exactly i want. but im sure, if i see it, i will know. lolx. dar wants a new pair of slippers.. haha. if we know earlier, shld hv bought her slippers for her bdae. since she hv so mani skirts liao. esp those... *ahem*... "shu nu" ones... lolx. went to temple and pray too.. lolx. since its like quite near to bugis street. saw a lot of ppl sitting there and asking for money. see liao oso veri ke lian leh. realli. i didnt noe singapore has so many of these people. some of them are realli old liao lor. havent they had enuff suffering during the second world war? why are they still slogging in their old age? i constantly wonder. i dun even noe wat to call them. the word "beggar" is jus a sort of taboo word for mi. nobody is born a beggar, and nobody likes to be one. didn't everyone always say tt humans are of high intelligence, and therefore we shld hv dignity? if ppl resort to begging, we can imagine the amt of helplessness and hopelessness they felt. but i think we ought to applaud them for having the will to live in such bad conditions. if it was mi, i wld probably hv killed myself. courage is not being fearless, but it's action despite of fear.

so i told myself: if i had the money, i will donate it to charity. there are ppl out there who needs the money tt is rotting in our banks. *sigh* seeing these ppl realli saddens mi. more than when i see ppl with terminal diseases.

suddenly, there is this thing tt strike mi. im seventeen. gosh. time does flies, doesnt it? three more yrs than i will be a whomping 20 and 4 more yrs, i will be officially an adult. i dunno why, but ya, i dun wan to grow up. the idea of growing up frightens mi. it seems just yesterday tt im 12 and jus received my PSLE results. and suddenly im here, preparing for A lvls. if im lucky, perhaps in 8 or 9 yrs time, i will probably get married. which is oso real scary. im jus a lil' girl at heart. and when mom was my age, she already had my sis. being an adult means no more license for making mistakes. no more excuses to make up for wrongdoings. perhaps other ppl is right. i hv nt been ard. all along, i had been living in a cosy world. now tt im used to it, i dowan to face the harsh reality. i realli hate it when ppl tell mi i've not experienced "tong ku". it's true tt i haven't but who wants to experience it voluntarily? isnt life supposed to b happy? dun realli understand. cos some ppl went to experience tt to prepare for future "tong ku", but if i do tt, wun it be like, im having tong ku all my life? kinda silly realli. life is jus full of ups and downs. why make ur ups become downs?

yay, i tink i recovered le. except tt i still have a teeny weeny bit of cough lar. i wan to SING!! yay. kbox rox. aha.