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This is Michelle from NTU, who has a blur queen personality and a love for biology.
Currently studying at the School of Biological Sciences.
I have my birthday celebration on 16 June every year.
Loves singing, reading, baking and eating.
Basically your good old plain Jane! :))


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Monday, November 20, 2006
not meant to be. @ 4:16 PM

Quoted from princess hours, and loosely translated by me, "the one thing that cannot be forced to change is fate."

how very true. Sure, I heard this phrase for a million times in various languages in my 18 years on Earth, but this is the one time im truely enlightened by it. and that little thing that triggered my enlightenment, is a small, tiny, insignificant hair pin.

In light of the current A level exams, i always make it a point to bring a hair pin to school, cos my fringe is now annoyingly long. What if that few chunks of hair blocked my view such that a few important details were missed? like a decimal point or two, that sort of thing. The first paper for Chemistry is paper 3. I brought a blue hair pin and left it on the table.

the next chemistry paper, which i will be sitting at the same seat, is paper 2. throughout the paper, i was thinking, i must remember to take my hairpin, blah blah.. it kind of just weaved in and out of my thoughts, as i battled with the chem qns. And yup, u've guessed it. I forgot to bring it home again. roar.

Ha, now that triggered my determination. I bought that hairpin for a grand total of $0.20, and im going to make sure that every cent count. So for the last chem paper, paper 1, i reminded myself again and again to take that pin. and i did.

sweet. i felt a sense of triumph cos i've put my forgetfulness behind me.teeheehee.

thus, i brought the very same pin to my bio paper 3 exam as well. To confirm the fact that i am indeed not forgetful....

i felt into my pockets....and well, it was empty. The hair pin was gone, maybe forever. here i was, thinking that if i work hard enough to remember to take that hair pin, i could possess it for life.

Perhaps that pin had a destiny that does not interwine with mine. (a bit of personification here.)
but i've learnt a lesson; what is not meant to be mine, can never be mine.

strangely, i felt so enlightened that i wanna let go of so many things in my life. those that i think may work, but logically, will never. it's really useless holding on to things i want to possess, but not able to. It made me blind to many other things that can be mine, but the opportunity just slipped past silently, without me even knowing. once i grasped this, i found a happier me. =)))



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