Friday, January 13, 2006

growing up @ 7:07 PM

Sometimes I wonder; what are we all going to be when we grow up? I'm starting to think more upon these lines, because in a few years time, my journey in getting a decent education might well be over. Then i'll hv to start worrying about money, jobs and bills. would i ever have the time to laugh properly again? and there's sth that kind of changed in my mind, during the transition from age 12 to age 17 (going on 18). At age 12, it was the time when i first really thought about my future. It's not I mature early or anything, it's just that im taking the first major paper (PSLE) in my entire life. Thoughts of going into which secondary school flooded my mind... yet i did not do well, but err.. i deserved it. BUT at the age, growing up and becoming an adult seems so far far away..... It seems that I never have to worry about life at all.

At age 12, i believe most of us are planning for our "bright future". Some wanted to be well-known doctors, astronaunts, or simply be someone in life. It's the good thing about being young, u know.. cos nothing seems impossible. All the good things in life are for us to grab when we grow up, just as long as we studied really hard (or so, taught to us by parents). But what that has never been taught to us is that, good things comes along with bad. And at some point of life, there are simply no good things at all.

The teenage years passed fairly quickly, mostly because I was busy studying for "my bright future." And of course, doing things that other teenagers did. Chatting on the phone late at night, hogging the com every single minute of the day, gossiping about ppl in school, swapping feelings of stress and crushes to each other.... well all these seem so long long ago. Instead of ageing 5 years, I felt that I have aged for more than 10 years. Then came the O levels, which i had a decent grade in.

At age 17 now, I have not much experience in life - but still I know enough of the world that solely a good education will not have gotten you anywhere. Sure, a good education would have made u a "someone" in life back in the old days.. but that's only because few people are educated back then. What about now? Just open ur eyes and look around you. University graduates are piling up on streets. so what if u got a degree? SO WHAT if you get As for every single subject? even ppl with honour classes are piling up.

Dreams of becoming somebody great in life vanished, and in place, all i wished for is a stable income, some friends around me, a caring family and occasional treats n outings. aw... it sound so mundane and well... normal. Completely different from the daring ambitions that I once have. Maybe im weird or something, but do anyone of u feel the same?

bottom line is; i dunno what to do with my future... when it's arriving so soon.

Friday, January 13, 2006

growing up @ 7:07 PM

Sometimes I wonder; what are we all going to be when we grow up? I'm starting to think more upon these lines, because in a few years time, my journey in getting a decent education might well be over. Then i'll hv to start worrying about money, jobs and bills. would i ever have the time to laugh properly again? and there's sth that kind of changed in my mind, during the transition from age 12 to age 17 (going on 18). At age 12, it was the time when i first really thought about my future. It's not I mature early or anything, it's just that im taking the first major paper (PSLE) in my entire life. Thoughts of going into which secondary school flooded my mind... yet i did not do well, but err.. i deserved it. BUT at the age, growing up and becoming an adult seems so far far away..... It seems that I never have to worry about life at all.

At age 12, i believe most of us are planning for our "bright future". Some wanted to be well-known doctors, astronaunts, or simply be someone in life. It's the good thing about being young, u know.. cos nothing seems impossible. All the good things in life are for us to grab when we grow up, just as long as we studied really hard (or so, taught to us by parents). But what that has never been taught to us is that, good things comes along with bad. And at some point of life, there are simply no good things at all.

The teenage years passed fairly quickly, mostly because I was busy studying for "my bright future." And of course, doing things that other teenagers did. Chatting on the phone late at night, hogging the com every single minute of the day, gossiping about ppl in school, swapping feelings of stress and crushes to each other.... well all these seem so long long ago. Instead of ageing 5 years, I felt that I have aged for more than 10 years. Then came the O levels, which i had a decent grade in.

At age 17 now, I have not much experience in life - but still I know enough of the world that solely a good education will not have gotten you anywhere. Sure, a good education would have made u a "someone" in life back in the old days.. but that's only because few people are educated back then. What about now? Just open ur eyes and look around you. University graduates are piling up on streets. so what if u got a degree? SO WHAT if you get As for every single subject? even ppl with honour classes are piling up.

Dreams of becoming somebody great in life vanished, and in place, all i wished for is a stable income, some friends around me, a caring family and occasional treats n outings. aw... it sound so mundane and well... normal. Completely different from the daring ambitions that I once have. Maybe im weird or something, but do anyone of u feel the same?

bottom line is; i dunno what to do with my future... when it's arriving so soon.