Thursday, March 05, 2009

Life and death @ 11:23 PM

It takes n number of years for you to become the person you are, but just 1 day to disappear from the face of this Earth forever. This thought is scary. Following the incident at NTU on Monday involving a fellow student kniving a professor and then falling to his death, I've been pondering a lot over these issues. It's not just because of the fact that he is a student of my university, but rather, I've never experienced firsthand on such a young person dying, and of his own accord too. Yes, we see all those articles about young people dying in accidents and diseases occasionally, but suicide is just so different, in a disturbing way. Besides, it happened so close to me too - within 1km I should guess? When the accident happened, I was taking my virology quiz back in the North Spine. The closeness of the accident somehow heightened the intensity of my thoughts.

I don't know what the other students think, but it keep coming back to me that, he was alive when I'm taking that virology quiz, he was alive when I was eating that Mr. Bean pancake in the south spine, he was alive when I walked past THAT spot to wee kim wee communications sch for my film art lectures... and all it takes is less than an hour for him to cease existing on this world.

It took me 20 (going to 21) years to freaking grow up to the person I was now (not a very wonderful person, but still relatively nice, haha), I'm not about to give up my life for anything. I know life isn't always easy, but an easy life wouldn't be living your life isn't it? The ups and downs make up your life, and it is thru these ordeals, you emerge a stronger person. Is it worth giving it up for something which you can't even hold on to, forever?

Money and fame, the humans desires. Even if you manage to get a hold of some, it is just a loan. 钱是身外物，生不带来，死不带去。If you think about it, almost everyone's ultimate goal is happiness. It is a primary desire. People love money and fame because it can get you your primary desire. But it is just not worth it to go chasing the secondary desires, and forgoing your primary desires. So, the moral of the story is, smell the roses as you walk along the journey.

As for the victim, I truely sympathise with him, not because I think what he did was right, but because he gave up a potentially lovely life in a moment of folly. Life has no erasers, no turning back. So cherish your loved ones, for you will not know what tomorrow brings.

Thursday, March 05, 2009

Life and death @ 11:23 PM

It takes n number of years for you to become the person you are, but just 1 day to disappear from the face of this Earth forever. This thought is scary. Following the incident at NTU on Monday involving a fellow student kniving a professor and then falling to his death, I've been pondering a lot over these issues. It's not just because of the fact that he is a student of my university, but rather, I've never experienced firsthand on such a young person dying, and of his own accord too. Yes, we see all those articles about young people dying in accidents and diseases occasionally, but suicide is just so different, in a disturbing way. Besides, it happened so close to me too - within 1km I should guess? When the accident happened, I was taking my virology quiz back in the North Spine. The closeness of the accident somehow heightened the intensity of my thoughts.

I don't know what the other students think, but it keep coming back to me that, he was alive when I'm taking that virology quiz, he was alive when I was eating that Mr. Bean pancake in the south spine, he was alive when I walked past THAT spot to wee kim wee communications sch for my film art lectures... and all it takes is less than an hour for him to cease existing on this world.

It took me 20 (going to 21) years to freaking grow up to the person I was now (not a very wonderful person, but still relatively nice, haha), I'm not about to give up my life for anything. I know life isn't always easy, but an easy life wouldn't be living your life isn't it? The ups and downs make up your life, and it is thru these ordeals, you emerge a stronger person. Is it worth giving it up for something which you can't even hold on to, forever?

Money and fame, the humans desires. Even if you manage to get a hold of some, it is just a loan. 钱是身外物，生不带来，死不带去。If you think about it, almost everyone's ultimate goal is happiness. It is a primary desire. People love money and fame because it can get you your primary desire. But it is just not worth it to go chasing the secondary desires, and forgoing your primary desires. So, the moral of the story is, smell the roses as you walk along the journey.

As for the victim, I truely sympathise with him, not because I think what he did was right, but because he gave up a potentially lovely life in a moment of folly. Life has no erasers, no turning back. So cherish your loved ones, for you will not know what tomorrow brings.